Up And Down In AKLEINCNEY's World

Pathetic

Last night a bit tired, so I go sleep awhile and set my phone to 10.00pm, cos I want to talk to him. But then I'm too tired, so I just talk for awhile, as he also sound sleepy.

I woke up and online, but then I cant see his anywhere. I don't know why every time I can't see him, then I'll start to think bad about him. I'll start to worrying a lot of stuff... Like;

1. Is he alone or with some one else?
2. He went out alone or happily with some one else?
3. If they really going out together, what are they doing?
4. Are they become more intimate?
5. Is there hugging and kissing ? Or even farther than that ?

I can't help myself of not thinking about this scenario.. Because I think it really does happen previously. I know I can't judge it if I'm not around or eye it with my own eyes. But then I also can't lie to how my heart reach. Because some times the six sense do tell you the truth.

I change my password today. I don't understand why I did it. But I do it any way. Do you think that my feeling is right ?

He start to act weird again now. He said he busy with the pc. He start to offline again. What exactly is he doing ? Is today their first year aniversary or what ? I can't help to keep on thinking about negative thing.

I told him I wrote blog previously. He read my blog ? Or did he found out something about how I think about him? Or he really tell the truth about how busy he is ? But the way he speack sound wrong. Brain ~ help me with this. I don't want anything bad happend to me again.

I already make up my mind last time (I told him so). This is the last chance that he have. If he ever play with me again, then its over with the relationship. I won't be stupid anymore. That is the limit of it. I don't care what will I do after that, or how sad I'm going to be. Its not worth it. I mean what I say.

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I got this cat .. look a bit like Garfield. But then she is a bit sapha sapha type.. Recently, she keep on following me here and there.. Last time I used to call her Feimao, cos she look fat, and eat a lot. But now.. her name become Mao.. haha.. when I call her Mao ~ Meow Meow, then she'll come and run to me.. and then start to cirle me.. hehe.. But then she is a bit stupid though.. ahaha.. cos very easy to kena bully.. heheh...Today early morning, when I open the door, I saw her sit infront of my door.. So then I just go play with her a bit.. eehehe.. make me miss Xiao Mi so much

posted by akleincney @ 6:40 AM