Up And Down In AKLEINCNEY's World

As there are good thing and bad thing happen.. life still goes on. Some times I feel sad.. depress... and too much stress. I hate it when I feel down. Especially when it related to my relationship. There are some times.. I became so pessimic about everything. Thinking about whether I really live in reality or.. am I just dreaming ..

Wait.. I hate this word so much. I don't even like it .. I hate it hate it hate !!!! .. I don't want to wait any more.. I don't know when will this "wait" go.. Why is it keep on attach to me .. At least let me know how many years to go? How many month? or how many days to go? Give me a date.. so that I know how long will I need to wait.. I wait since I'm 18.. Now I already reach 23... and still need to wait. I don't know how long will this patience going to continue. I'm really scared to put a stop to it. What if one day it just stop.. and the result is nothing? What will I get in return?

Last time I only need to wait for lao kong to finish his degree.. that is just 2 yrs. Then suddenly he's pursuing his master. Ok.. thats is 1 yr and a half.. And now.. he continuing his PhD.. and he doesn't even know when will he graduate. Ok.. that is his story.

Mine... I wait till I finish my degree.. and suddenly I'm taking this master ... and it will took about 2 yrs to complete.. it will mean if both of us going to complete in 2 yrs time.. so this "wait" will dissapear. But what if there other thing or prob come along this period of time? What if suddenly I'm also pursuing PhD? Or what if he need to do further research to complete his PhD? God.. help help!!! give me a direction.. plz~~.. Or at least please bless both of us.. protect us from doing some mischievious act.. Make our love strong.. and make me more patience.. Amen.

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Lao kong just finish his class 2 days ago.. his summer holiday just started. Well.. as he's not that busy.. he become so sweet.. and he got more time to talk to me.. and he is not that bad temper any more.. no more stranger feeling.. Hope this will continue.. So I'll become happy happy lao po.. But I'm abit sad cos he might not coming back this year.. So I don't even know when will I see him again.. Really miss him a lot. want to hug him.. sleep with him.. kiss kiss.. and do lots of thing with him.. feel like to bite him now.. wu... lao kong come back ~~ miss you miss you~~

I just got my Visa.. and book air ticket to Perth. I'll leaving on July 13th with Ma and Pa. But I still haven decide where to stay. There are two option. One is to stay with Alvin's gf.. and the other one is to stay with my ex-groupmate. But the prob is that this ex-groupmate is a guy.. so will need to consider bout that.. this guy stay some where near campus.. only need to walk 10 mins then can reach the uni.. But if I stay with Alvin's gf. then I'll have a bit prob with transportation. I'll need to walk 10 mins to the bus stop.. and ride 10 mins bus ride to reach uni. I don't know about other stuff... So will need to ask them some more.. or consider to look for house by myself.