Up And Down In AKLEINCNEY's World

peaceful mind ?

Wee have a fight again yesterday.. I'm not sure whether it been categories as the same thing or not but I really not happy about it.. he hang up on me... as I'm not valuable at all.. well may be I deserve it ? or he goes too much.. cant sleep the whole night.. keep on wake up and think too much.. and i come up with this though; -

1. He hang up on you
2. He don't really care on how you feel
3. Say "I love you" become so hard to utter out
4. He always has lots of excuse to hang up
5. You look for him all the times but very hard to find
6. Bad temper (Easily get mad)
7. Crying become a habit, instead of laugh and cheerful days
8. You feel like you never wish to be born
9. You feel like no one care about you anymore
10. Its very hard to breathing
11. Very hard to swallow your breath

Is this reason cause the love to fade ? Is this the reason why people break up ? Is this the reason why people say the long distance relationship is difficult?

Don't dare to think about it.. what if I make the first move ? will it turn up to be ok? will it change my life? make it better off or worst? will it got any effect to him? or that is the best solution? Will he come back to me if I say that word? or he'll just turn his back and walk away like I never exist in his life? I really want to know.. is it worth it to make a try? should I? or you want me to leave it like this and make it worst? because I can't see the bottom line of this mess.. it turn out that the problem keep on coming this few weeks.. I'm not sure.. why am I so blurr?? I'm so genius in my study.. but why can't I handle this problem ? What love really mean ? Is it enough to just say.. nite nite.. huggss.. muak.. love you.. without any other affection? Is it enough ? Just to speak for few mins a day? Without seeing each other for few month or years? Is this ......

posted by akleincney @ 9:50 AM