Smile.. Be happy. Be confident.. and stay as good conditions you can. Cos you never know when some one will attracted to those characteristic. I don't know whether I have done these before. But I did make some one say "Honestly.. I like you since the day that I saw you" This make me wonder. How do I look at the first time when he saw me? Messy? Tidy? Confident? Childist? attractive? I don't know..
But the quote that say " Smile.. cos your smile make some one happy" is quite true. And some times, its not bad to know there are some one outside there still appreciate you as what you are. Cos until now I only know I appreciate Danna a lot.. but don't know whether he feel the same. And those thing some how did help to boost the confident.
Live life to the fullest. That is what a friend of mine tell me today. He said we never know when will we die. May be I'll die now.. or later from some thing that I don't know. So I need to be happy even when I don't get what I want. What he mean is that there always something that is so wonderful in this world that will make you happy. Some simple thing like talking to some friend, or stranger.. Walking alone, Watching some movie, or spend some quality time with your beloved one or families. Make sure that you'll do some thing meaningful. As you never know when will you leave this world. At least when the time comes, you know you live life as best as you can. And its worth it.. no regret on what you didn't do.
This make me wonder. Whether I live my life to the fullest? No.. not yet.. cos based on what I did.. I just work every day. Go back home.. watch some movie and talk to Kenny and then tease my sister, brother.. gossip here and there.. But hey.. that count in the quality time with family also right~ ..
But how about my social life? Will I regret that I never go out partying with friends? Or socialise with some buddies? Well.. I think that should be fine for me.. Cos I know its more worth it to wait for danna at home.. and talk with him. and Danna also one question mark.. Danna = My ever lasting soulmate? This only time wil tell.. I hope it not lust... but love
I think I should start live my life better before I leave my family. What should I do now? I need to find some list of thing I MUST do before leaving.
Been talking a lot with Alvin last nite. We talk a lot about real life. I mean I sound so matured in the conversation. I really appreciate our friendship. We can talk many thing openly. No scare or even shy feeling..
Some how he know a lot about me and kenny. He understand how I feel.. and some times.. he said just get over him.. and find another perfect guy. Its not worth it to wait for some jerk. But then after last nite. He finally know what exactly my situation. And he also make me understand about Kenny's situation. Make me more understand on Kenny's position. May be he is my true love. May be this waiting is worth it.
So lets make a promise. No more hard feeling on what happen out there. No more accusing him without seeing it through my own eyes. (Even email also not count) Must see it face to face.
So lao kong. Biayane. Sarang ha mi da. Forgive lao po for being childist. I promise.. I'll always be guai guai. Be your good lao po.
So what will I be in 5 or 10 years from now. Will I be successful? Cos I know every one out there have been through this before. But what exactly that make them so different from each other? What will I be? Lao kong? Family? Friend?
Lao kong ask me to watch this movie from Youtube. At the begining it quite bored. but then the story get interesting when the guy and the lady live two years apart in time. And they are communicate with each other with this magical mail box. They called it as time transcending love. Find the story very sweet and touching. So just upload it here to keep for myself.
