recently quite busy with my life here in Brunei..not much thing happen here.. and also seldom talk to kenny cos he was very busy lately.. today wait for him to come back and call him a lot but he doesnt pick up the phone.. may be he already reach home but too tired and fall asleep so dont even have energy to answer the phone... well this few days i keep on thinking that may be in the past im to worried about him, even though i know that he's alright.. but i keep on worry too much when i cant find him.. i think now is the best time for me, as im busy with the task in office and help papa out with some stuff, so it will keep me busy and i wont have too much time to think too much and worry about too much thing that doesnt even realistic.. well i told kenny that i'll believe in him so i will.. and stop the negative thinking.. be more positive.. so from now on, i'll wait for him to send me sms and then will call him.. cos if i keep on disturb him when he so busy and stress, it wont do any good for him rite~.. so i'll give him some times and let him deal with all the stuff that need to be done.. i just need to finish up my work here , and xiao mi, and sleep and of course when im free even 1 mins, i'll keep on thinking bout him, cos if i dont, then he will be not happy.. hehe... nvm... just leave it all to God.. and now i remember what he said.. he belong to be.. so no one can take him away from me.. so i just need to believe in i.. well no harm rite ~.. so what i need to do now is work for this holiday, wait for my reult to come out, continue my final sem for four month, then continue to come back and then work for few month then off to the State!.. hehe.. brilliant plan!.. well hope nothing will come along than will spoil this plan.. or may be i need to come up with plan B for safety purpose.. but for now.. just leave it alone...
oh ya... i forgot something... remember the sifu in Labi? he been arest for breaking some of the immegression rules.. i dont know what but lenny say the put him in jail for certain period, and take all his beonging "sen in his temple".. well they said the one that do that wil get something in return... i wonder how he's doing now.. hope he will be alright..
well not sure what to write now.. cos just now too much free time, and just feel like scribble something.. i home will continue on blogging from now onward, as there not much thing to do.. hehe...
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"if you love some thing, set it free, if it come back to you, its yours, if it doesnt, it never was" -- but make sure you keep in touch or else he'll think that you dont care--
dont know where kenny are now... miss him a lot but i dont dare to keep on find him later he'll feel annoy again.. but i really want to know how is he now.. last nite he said he not happy and want to be a lone for a while.. and i will wait for him to send me sms.. but i wait til now still he haven send... quite worried about him now.. i dont know what make him not happy.. i think should be the girl again.. im not sure what happening over there.. and he dont want to tell me anything.. i hope everything ok .. and he knwo what he's doing.. and he said he'll be busy the whole day but i wonder whether he miss me or i m the only one that feel this way.. may be im not the most important person in his life even tough he say i love you forever... how i wish i never engage in any of this problem .. but when we together i really happy and feel so peaceful.. and nothing can ever separate us... now i think should continue with my study.. next week got exam and dont think too much.. i'll go to state next year and i hope by then there will b e no problem .. lao kong ~ i really miss you now...
erm.. was wrong on the first place.. well.. he really not happy today.. and he sound so kelian.. he want to cry.. but then he cant.. i really felt sorry for him.. i wish im next to him so i can hugg him and make him feel better...
the problem is that this early morning, his superior say that they not really satisfied with his working performance because he doesnt inform them on what he's doing.. so thats y he felt a bit upset and anothe problem is that his professor doesnt approve his thesis and ask him to stop writing, instead asking him to continue and take another unit to replace this assessment.. but he felt that he waste a lot of time and money and effort in doin gthe thesis but now the prof say he dont like what he's doing.. that's why he also felt so upset and thinking of all these stuff make him headache and doesnt have energy to do other stuff. even he receive my package today.. he still not that happy about it.. i really hope i can be there for him.. as he feel really not happy now..
last time never dream about him that much.. always dream that he is far away.. but recently.. i always dream abou tus.. we spend time together and we doing stuff together.. how i miss him now.. previous day was a hectic day.. full with problem and misunderstanding.. even though my brain say it still doesnt make sense but i want to believe in him.. it very hard for me to keep on thinking all those emails.. it make my life misery and make me sick with all the headache, stomache, fever and insomia to come.. and i dont like that.. i love him and he say he love me too.. and he promise a lot of stuff.. so if he lie that mean he is the wicked person in this whole wide world.
but i dont think he will dare to do all those stuff to me cos i believe in him.. so i just jump into conclusion. i dont want to worry about the problem. and i also dont want to make thing big.. and dont want to burden him with this also.. so i just say " just forget about it" like there nothing happening at all.. and dont talk about it anymore, as i dont want to know anything single thing about it..
now i need to conmcentrate on study.. i got exam this week and also next week.. so just make it like a normal day and wait for him to come back and talk to me. and just let the time flow.. cos the time pass very fast and i'l go to state next year and this year it still have 6 month to go.. and new life will come new luck will come.. so just left al the unhappiness behind and just take the happy memory and move forward..
Alice ~ Gambate!!
life without danna sama sure different.. feel so lonely and empty.. that time when he around was so fun and doesnt feel empty at all.. life become so wonderful and has lots of meaning.. but now he left me here alone again and going back to wichita and start his life like normal again... how i miss the day that we spend together. i try to save some money but i think i spend so much lately.. there are so many stuff that need to buy.. i ought 4 shirt for him and i think it quite heavy and i think most probably it will cost more than 50 bug to send it through mail.. and today he said he also need a pai of lens so i need to spend some more.. :s nvm.. after that i can save the rest of my money.. and now what im worried about is the coming exam... two more week got SM exam, but i still cant study.. i dont know what wrong, i try to focus, but still, the mood is not there yet.. i think i need to plan my time according ly and make a time table for this month till the exam end, so i can make full use of the time that i has.. and i can finish my revision before time, cos i really want to get a good gred and show to papa... cos i need to maintain my GPA and go for masters's program in wichita also.. so need to start now.. and enough with movie and other uncessasary stuff, include indulge myself with food.. need to start up with diest again.. i cant continue live like this, i need to change.. and also need to start with the most important stuff first.. enough with lao kong.. he always going to be mine.. no need to worry, cos he promise .. so there no need to worry.. ok.. gambate !.. god bless me..
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