Up And Down In AKLEINCNEY's World: May 2007

Thursday, May 31, 2007

eye sore + bear

my eyes = o_O

Monday, May 28, 2007

Idiotic me

What am I crying for ? For the love that is not belong to me? Until when do I need to continue this idiotic move? Why it always me who will be hurt in the end? Its turn like I’m becoming the third party here. The one that going to ruin people’s love life.

God. I always ask you to answer me.. But I never receive any reply from you. I always ask you whether it worth it to wait.. Did you ever answering me? I ask him.. But is he telling me the truth?

How long can I live like this? If he prefer that girl over me. Don’t hold me back. I told you before. If you like other person let me know.. I’ll walk away from your life. I wait and wait and wait.. till I discover some bad thing again. This is not the first time it happen.

What is it that you really looking for? Why cant you just say you had enough. Enough with everything. You are too tired of working, study, assignment.. and there are no more room for me.

You said “ That is the important thing that you want to tell me?” Of course its important to me. I don’t know that its not important to you. But for me.. you are the most important thing.. important person in my life. I always put you the first. But I don’t think you will do the same for me.

What is it that I’m fighting for? I though that I love you very much.. and so does you. That is what I’m fighting for. But once your life have another room for other girl. Than.. its squeeze me to the bottom of the line. And there are other love the exist beneath your heart. Tell me.. is it worth it for me to fight for you again when you already know the answer for yourself?

I’m sorry that I cant really read your mind. I always ask you to give me “Guai guai.. hug hug.. kiss kiss and I love you” every time I end my call. Cos I really love to hear that. Even how angry or sad or bad thing happen. It will some how neutralize my feeling. At least it make me feel warm in my heart. To hear some one that I love most telling me that he love me.

But once I knew about the existing of another person in your life. Tell me.. what should I do? Can I just walk away.. pretend like nothing happen? Or will I have the gut to say “That’s the end of us. Don’t ever expect me to look for you anymore”

I know there are other thing that is more important than love live in this world. Its Family, Career, Money. But life really become so dull without love. I don’t have the gut to love others. I rather wait for you. But I don’t know when will the waiting going to end. Tell me.. do you still want me to wait? But what exactly that am I waiting for? When you can get what you want now without waiting.

I know I cant blame her. Its not a crime to love. But it’s a crime to love other people’s lover. But yet it not a crime again when the people’s lover love her back. Complicated.
What should I do? What should I do? I know this will happen again. I know ,… I just know. Even how you swear.. it just going to happen again.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

100 hours per week

So Lao kong gone crazy again.. he said he need to work 100 hours per week in NIAR instead of 20 hours per week cos he in summer holiday now. But then this not include the whole saturday cos he work with pizza hut the whole day. and also on Monday, Wednesday and Friday night.. So I don't know how wil he arrange his time.

Every day he need to wake up at 5.30am and start to work. So he must be realy exhausted when he reach home. Poor lao kong...

I bought 2 sweather from yayasan.. both purple in colour. Cant find other.. so I might go down miri to look for sweater..

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Life goes on

As there are good thing and bad thing happen.. life still goes on. Some times I feel sad.. depress... and too much stress. I hate it when I feel down. Especially when it related to my relationship. There are some times.. I became so pessimic about everything. Thinking about whether I really live in reality or.. am I just dreaming ..

Wait.. I hate this word so much. I don't even like it .. I hate it hate it hate !!!! .. I don't want to wait any more.. I don't know when will this "wait" go.. Why is it keep on attach to me .. At least let me know how many years to go? How many month? or how many days to go? Give me a date.. so that I know how long will I need to wait.. I wait since I'm 18.. Now I already reach 23... and still need to wait. I don't know how long will this patience going to continue. I'm really scared to put a stop to it. What if one day it just stop.. and the result is nothing? What will I get in return?

Last time I only need to wait for lao kong to finish his degree.. that is just 2 yrs. Then suddenly he's pursuing his master. Ok.. thats is 1 yr and a half.. And now.. he continuing his PhD.. and he doesn't even know when will he graduate. Ok.. that is his story.

Mine... I wait till I finish my degree.. and suddenly I'm taking this master ... and it will took about 2 yrs to complete.. it will mean if both of us going to complete in 2 yrs time.. so this "wait" will dissapear. But what if there other thing or prob come along this period of time? What if suddenly I'm also pursuing PhD? Or what if he need to do further research to complete his PhD? God.. help help!!! give me a direction.. plz~~.. Or at least please bless both of us.. protect us from doing some mischievious act.. Make our love strong.. and make me more patience.. Amen.

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Lao kong just finish his class 2 days ago.. his summer holiday just started. Well.. as he's not that busy.. he become so sweet.. and he got more time to talk to me.. and he is not that bad temper any more.. no more stranger feeling.. Hope this will continue.. So I'll become happy happy lao po.. But I'm abit sad cos he might not coming back this year.. So I don't even know when will I see him again.. Really miss him a lot. want to hug him.. sleep with him.. kiss kiss.. and do lots of thing with him.. feel like to bite him now.. wu... lao kong come back ~~ miss you miss you~~

I just got my Visa.. and book air ticket to Perth. I'll leaving on July 13th with Ma and Pa. But I still haven decide where to stay. There are two option. One is to stay with Alvin's gf.. and the other one is to stay with my ex-groupmate. But the prob is that this ex-groupmate is a guy.. so will need to consider bout that.. this guy stay some where near campus.. only need to walk 10 mins then can reach the uni.. But if I stay with Alvin's gf. then I'll have a bit prob with transportation. I'll need to walk 10 mins to the bus stop.. and ride 10 mins bus ride to reach uni. I don't know about other stuff... So will need to ask them some more.. or consider to look for house by myself.

Monday, May 14, 2007

Graduation, May 11th 2007 Miri

Here are some of the picture taken at my graduation ceremony in Miri. I didn't manage to take any pic with othe ppl cos I'm rushing to go meet mama cos her eyes got prob. Pity her... The doctor said her muscle swollen.. And she need to take lots of med. Her treatment process and cost is more than RM2,500..

I'll get some other pic of mine from my friends and once I get it .. will upload it here again. So brain~ enjoy the photo ya.. and help me guard it. Don't lost it o! Cos I need this memory for future future... hehe..

I got flower \(^o^)/

Alice: "Bing Ho! Help me carry this flower and

pose pic with me!! "

Jona Jona~

Vivian - she took same major as me..

Panda eyes T_T"

My best Buddy... Bitching around sometimes.

Thung Thung, Suryani, Fatma and Me

Fatma nag nag nag :s

Skinny Kenson - Swimming Club President

First meet him when I join valley ball club

Jonathan And Suryani. Suryani very quite...

but once she speak.. she can make you laugh non-stop

AKian - Yvonne's bf

Me and Melvin a.k.a

http://geeky69.blogspot.com

Me and Albento! "No spec o_O"

Yvonne Liang Moi a.k.a

Lao Bong ahaha

Akian, Alvin, Me, Yvonne, Feima & Davis

Me and Hui Ping (Lenny's Best friend)

Jijilot.

Carrie - Feima's friend

Papa

Pity mama.. eye swallon still attend my graduation..

Love you mum! get well soon

Gong Gong also want to join

This face expression cause by a loud bang from the speaker

Very Funny.. hahaha

Mama and papa

Friday, May 11, 2007

Speech

I'm cracking my brain now to produce some idea on what should I say in my short speech. I been choosen to be a star for few mins for Curtin's corporate video. ahaha... Can't even imagine how it will turn out to be. So its all started when I went to Uni yesterday to pay the photography session and take my regalia. So After I done paying the photography fees.. I saw ppl queing up to collect the entrance ticket. And then suddenly I heard some one calling Alice! Alice!... It was Mr. Choo... He said " Alice! you are wanted! " I'm blur blur... why am I suddenly wanted.. and every one are looking at me :s.. And then Fidella is like "Oh.. so this is Alice!" I'm like yes?? What is it? Why you ask?

Mr. Choo ask me to fil in the survey form first .."you fill this form first. then I'll tell you" .. Finish filling the form --survey form for top student =p-- .. Finish!.. what is it that you are so excited about??? Why am I wanted? Then he said I am one of Curtin top student.. --ahaha .. i'm a top student!!! hohohoo--- And Sham have choosen me to do something something on behalf of Curtin Business School. And they ask me to look for Lorna... cos she'll explain it to me..

So after I collected my regalia.. Off to Lorna.. and she give me a letter and ask me to check it myself.. Thats is to be a star.. hehe. idiot.. And that is the reason why I'm craking my head now... anyone can help??? what should I say?

Oh I got another good news. Remember last time I only took 3 unit for my final sem? Guess what~ I got dean list award again... hehe.. and for all the unit too!!!. ahaha... I'm too happy.. and don't even know what should I do.. hehehe.... I called lao kong but he didnt answer the phone .. he must be really busy cos he got exam and take home exam this few days.. Wish him all the best..

So after that we took some pic with Yvonne and other ppl... and then at the afternoon after finish studio shooting at Milan.. I go exchange Brunei currency and bank in and then went to take pic at the Grand Old Lady..

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Some pic

No description yet.. cos I'm a bit busy now. Will update the details once I go back to Brunei.

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